oh to live this...

"...the faith that surmounts the evidence and is able to warm itself at the fire of God's love, instead of having to steal love and self-acceptance from other sources, is actually the root of holiness..."















The Miller-4

The Miller-4
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BREATHE!!!!

BREATHE!!!!

soooo love the beach

soooo love the beach
Ormond Beach, FL

1 Peter 2:15


"For it is God's will that by doing good you should silence the ignorant
talk of foolish men."

Song lyrics that I love.....

"Rid me of myself, I belong to you....lead me to the cross"
"Your Name brings life more than the air I breathe"
"You make everything glorious and I am Yours.....what does that make me?"

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personality plus

Surely, you've heard of the four "personality types"?
Phlegmatic, Choleric, Sanguine and Melancholy.  Everyone is the world has one...or a mixture....but, basically we are all just 4 "types".

Phelgmatics (top left) Wikipedia says are relaxed, quiet, kind, observant thinkers and shy...but can be perceived as lazy or unadventurous.


Cholerics (top right) are ambitious, leader-like, task oriented...their motto:  DO IT NOW!...They can be dictatorial and tyrannical...but they get the job done (or better...have it done for them!)


Sanguines (bottom left)  are fun, sociable, pleasure seeking, impulsive and charismatic...but have difficulty completing tasks, being punctual...or staying the course...Sanguines play!  I believe I am pure Sanguine!

Finally,

Melancholerics (bottom right) are introverted, creative, sensitive, often depressed, perfectionists...others cannot please them.

"They" say (whomever 'they' are) opposites attract...if a couple behaved the same...one would not be necessary.  I do not think I believe that. I think after the initial attraction...well, I believe humans just irritate each other...it's the sin nature inside.

I also believe there is another personality out there...I will call them ...."odd people"...I think I should like to describe them...because it seems they are growing in numbers...or maybe just around me...maybe it's Florida...too much sunshine...too much down time?  Not sure.

I'd like to present here some things that "odd people" do...often.
  • when odd people are late for work, and in a panic to get out the door as quickly as possible...they don't grab the newly pressed work clothes from the cleaners...they grab the next "set" in the rotation (because there is a rotation) and rush and sweat to press them and wear them one more time before sending back to the cleaners...when questioned...they become irritated and respond (always this is the response), "I just do what makes me feel good".
This confuses me.  If you are short on time, feeling anxious because you will probably be late...why does taking on an extra time consuming task "make you feel good?"  I'm just curious....
  • some odd people I know are constantly trying to lose weight...and are upset with their current physical condition.  These same odd people, I've noticed, are big on "snacking"....and when reminded of their "diet program"...they respond..."I'm just doing what makes me happy".  Ok, then why all the talk about the diet plan?
  • these same odd people like to be on a REGULAR scheduled exercise program...to lose weight...but please oh please do not try to help them in any way.  ANY advice or even a plan of action that has worked FAMOUSLY and SUCCESSFULLY for you...well, it is not welcomed.  When asked why they don't want to take any advice or suggestions?...well, you know the response already... "I'm just doin..blah blah blah.
  • Odd people eat weird food, not normal food.  They "mix" odd things together...like all the leftovers in a 'frig...with some, oh, soup? maybe.  They eat ketchup and grape jelly on potatoes....but would NEVER EVER eat something "weird" like deer meat or gator tail...nope, not gonna mess up their taste buds with crap like that...no way!
  • My favorite thing odd people do is ask questions but not to get an answer.  Sometimes I just think they like hearing the sound of their own voice.  For example....and odd person might say, "Hey friend, (with you in the car) where would you like to go to lunch?  I'd say, Blah Blah....because it takes a Sanguine a split second to completely make up their minds about decisions.  Odd people say, "mmm, sounds good".  Now, in my non-odd way of thinking...I'm guessing Blah Blah is where we are headed. Nope...the question was NOT asked to obtain an answer...it was just asked...and so are the next 5 attempts at asking me where I'd like to eat.  They say, "How about... or ....?"  Are you kidding me?  What game are we playing here?  WHY ON EARTH ARE YOU ASKING ME WHERE I WANT TO GO IF WE ARE NOT GOING THERE?  Answer:  "I was just curious where you wanted to go".  Then they pull into the restaurant of THEIR choice...and wonder, clearly confused...why I am heated.
  • Odd people do not like dining out...well, maybe they do...but they are easily irritated.  Sounds irritate them, as well as people and OH YES, babies, loud talkers, kids, temperatures too.  Odd people are not usually satisfied with where the Waitstaff seat them...they generally want to sit..."over there".  The music is usually too loud, the temp too cold and the tables...well, shoot, they are ALWAYS too close to other people.  Once alllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll of that has been remedied...well, it is time to eat...like there is NO TOMORROW...because today, remember there is  no diet and who cares about physical fitness...Today we eat for tomorrow we may die..it's what makes us "feel good".
  • One last thing...Odd people speak ...well, oddly.  They talk in very long, drawn out sentences using lots and lots of extra words...and if you interrupt them mid-sentence...well, they gotta start again....usually with a "huff"...  For example...I believe (because Sanguines are very confident they are 99% right 98% of the time) a sentence should go like this: 
  • Hey, I saw Suzy yesterday.  She said to tell you hi". 

    The odd person will say,

    "Hey, you will never guess what happened to me yesterday. I can hardly believe it myself.  I was in the most southern section of the Bellechase Subdivision that we live in while on my way to see Gary Gentry, the Sr. VP of Accounting for Exxon's Corporate Office, USA and lo and behold a white Chevy Blazer came driving up Easy Street right towards me at the stoplight.  While I applied my breaks, not 20 yards before the light I noticed in that white chevy blazer was Tom Carson's wife.  YOu know Tom Carson, the General Manager for Penn Flooring on 1st Street downtown.  His wife, is the one with the brown hair that works at Allstate Insurance office for John Brown in Accounting.  Suzy is her name.  I rolled down my window as the white chevy blazer came almost to a dead stop beside my tan jeep and there she was.  I couldn't believe it.  Suzy said, "Hi odd person", how are you?  Please tell Cindy I said hi the next time you see her will you?" I told her I would be happy to relay that message to you as soon as I saw you next."  So, be sure and let Suzy know I told you that I saw her in her white chevy blazer in Bellechase yesterday at the stop sign."
  • That was not an exaggeration.  While I revealed to you that I am a Sanguine, I failed to mention I have ADD...so at "you will never believe"....the odd person loses me...attention span is just a couple of seconds....so my eyes glaze over and I just wait for all the talking to stop....because I know the lonnnnnnnnnnnnnng story will eventually be summed up in the last paragraph (because they are always talking in term paper form....intro, body and final paragraph) and I'll catch what I need then...suzy said to tell you Hi!  Oh, ok...thanks!
  • One last observation...Odd people do things in order...the same order...always...and nothing can interfere with that.  I have watched this for a long time.  If, and odd person does something every day....for example..ironing...and there is something ON the ironing board....they will move it off the board...but not put it back on.  IF that same item is put BACK on the ironing board, say everyday for a week...they will move it off EVERY day but NEVER, ever notice or question WHY it is there...it just needs to be moved....and moved and moved....sometimes it can be moved over 10 times...and still never noticed.  Because the task at hand...is ironing....get "that" off the board.
That is all I can say about the this type of odd people today...all I know is that they are odd...in everything they do and say...and sometimes...well, I just get plain worn out...because I stay confused. 

I wonder if I am the odd person to them?  Probably so!




Moving Lessons Learned:
  • I will NEVER pack myself again..
  • I will get rid of EVERYTHING not necessary for life BEFORE I move (bc I WILL have to unpack it and find a home for EVERYTHING.
  • pack special things...very, very well....haste really does cause waste thank you Mother for the overused cliche.
  • Pack things with like things...do NOT mix rooms
  • Pack items you use daily in your car...WHERE IS MY CALENDAR, the polish remover and the TV remote??????
  • PAY DISH to install your TV...don't wait on the Mistah or you will be without cable for a LONG time.
  • There is no such thing as "I might need this later"...NO YOU WON'TTTTTTTTTTTTT!!!!!
Ok, that's all.  This is day 4 of unpacking and with each box I leave more inside the box and label it "Good Will"....and I take 1 million breaks....not sure why I dislike this process so...but I do....is it 5 o'clock?  Um?  Yep!

The End!
What I want...

What I fear...
 

Whom I serve...

where my heart really lives......

Our "internal circuitry is "wired to seek out something worthy of worship. Every moment we live, we live bowed to something.  And if we don't see God...we'll bow down before something else"  (Ann Voscamp's 1000 gifts).

We're moving....I'm packing...2 days ago was my bathroom....methodically i put all things in only 2 piles...that which is packed...that which is to be tossed...with the tendancy to "keep in case I need it" when it comes to "product"...the bathroom drawers can be...um?....full.  So the tossing process began...it's very carthartic...the only things I now have are those products that I use...regularly.....the question becomes...why "keep" anything "just in case"? when it feels so good to not.
So...
then I pack what is left.  Two weeks before the big move date...everything that gets "locked" in a box..is no longer accessible..that's a rule I've made up...it lives somewhere in my head...even tho' with a quick flip of the wrist and a sharp knife...all contents of every box can be accessed....but still....
I look at the bathroom scale....to pack or not to pack?  Why is it such a struggle?  Ah, I remember....it's the "scale god" mentality that I have. ..I have been serving "him" for more than 30 years....upon awakening...you venture in to the private bath...body emptied....you step on...and the number reveals your "worth"....whether or not you can be rewarded today with food.  Are you good ...or are you bad?
Sickness.

I pack the scale...unaccessible for 2 weeks...
Yesterday...I awake....my god is missing...how will I know who I am today?
Today....awake...no god...and I feel the beginning of freedom.
Food is fuel and without it we are worthless.
BUT...
"nothing tastes better than being skinny feels"
I believe that.
I know it to be true.
I will live to be healthy
and strong
and serve a God, in heaven who has
"forgiven all my sins,
healed all my diseases
redeemed my life from the pit and
crowsn me with steadfast love and mercy,
who satifies me with good
so that my youth is renewed like the eagle" (Psalm 103:3-5)
My God who...
"is in my midst, a mighty one who will save;
who will rejoice over me with gladness,
who will quiet me by his love,
 and exult over me with loud singing" (Zephaniah 3:17)

"Let him who boasts boast about this:
that he understands and knows Me, that I am the LORD who excercizes kindness, justice and righteousness on earth, for in these I delight, declares the Lord.  (Jeremiah 9:24)


"Whom the Son sets free is free indeed."  John 8:36

Lord, today, set me free from the idol worship of the scale god.